CRAZY CLAROAR.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

A new beginning.

okay i'm darn tired so i'll briefly blog

Musical's over, back to reality

Everytime when something like this happen, I tend to be super emotional.

It's been a great time doing crazy amount of rehersals and I really love it.

Met a lot of new and awesome people during the whole journey to a new chapter. (I hope I dont sound too melo-dramatic)

Can someone take a camera now?
I want to take a photo of this moment and store it inside my heart.

Right here. Right now.

Inside.

THANK YOU DEARIES

SAMANTHA, RAPHAEL, SHIH HAN, GUO HAO, YI LIAN, MARINA, VENKA, AFIQ, RAGU, CHEW YAN.

FOR COMING TO SUPPORT ME.

I was seriously seriously seriously seriously SERIOUSLY happy ttm.

i really love y'all.

(pics on facebook)

FINALLY. FINALLY I BOUGHT BACK MY IPHONE

and guess what. my mother bought it too.

HAHAH WE BOTH HAVE OUR IPHONESSSS ;D

Mine was 32gB and hers was 16.

Guess what. Both our phones costs us $598 in total.

& both of ours got white toooooo

and she was like saying

"scully i take wrongly then your bf call me "eh hello clara we're meeting at - and - at - time right? and I'll be like " WHO IS THIS!? THIS IS HER MOTHER HERE" then i was like "later your boss call me then tell me you're late for work how?!"

okay. but first thing first. I have no boyfriend.

On the first day of the actual performance,

they gave us daisy flowers for each performancers and I WAS DARN DARN DARN HAPPY:}

I can't believe I actually dont feel nervous at all when I danced on stage infront of the 1k people.

2nd day was

the bomb.

I was soooo excited and sad.

Bcos it's the final day that we're working so hard for. Everything seems to be flying so fast.

Things would be so different without musical pract now :(
I'll miss the alumnis and the rest

Ily.

& NYP's so nice to buy Koi Bubble tea for all the performers.

yummy!

xoxoxo will blog again.

P/S: i hope that "out of sight out of mind" doesnt happen to us.

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

Our charade.

It seems like this year's haven't been moving smoothly for me.

Is it because I didnt do my count down for a new year?

Can things not be any worst than this.

Project week this week and I srsly am struggling with loads of work.

So much to a certain extent where I really feel like giving up and screw it. & I'm like sleeping at an average of 4 HOURS PER DAY. Then again I reminded myself that I want to make my poly days an enjoyable one so I decided to hang in there and complete my assignments.

However bad luck seems to be my BFF these few days.

My concession card just nice expired when I'm in a hurry for school. Dropped my phone when I payed for the standard card. Cold war with mommy bcos she just can't stop frigging be less annoying. (Yeh I know it's so unlike me to quarrel with my mom). Forgot to bring my Final Project to school and today was the submission. YA GG. Had to bear with insensitive people around me judging me because of some guys. Srsly. I don't want to go through another turmoil period. What's wrong with saying hi or bye?

Please stop messing around my life and friends.

Ye sure, gossip but please, set some limits. I don't want to become like some bitch when things gets out of hand.

Finally I ate icecream again.

They are my happy pills and judging from the amount of things gg on in my life, all I can say is

I'll be growing fat bcos I'll be needing a lot of happy pills.

FINALLY met up with chicky today to pass him the musical tickets :} I'm so darn happy that sammie love and the rest are coming. I'll try to get more tickets kay?! Both of us catched up with our stuff and ate A LOTTTTTTTT.

Like spaghetti and apple crumble @ Pasta Mania, then went to swensons to get icecreammmm.

Talked about our school life and crawled back home together bcos we were toooooooooooooooo full. Our stomachs were exploding.

I know I've been neglecting some friends during this period bcos of my hectice schedule and of course, I'm seriously damn tired. I hope y'all aren't mad. Wait till everything's done and I'll catch up with y'all kay? & My dear classmates were really patient with me. I know I can be really irritating at times bcos I always forget to bring this and that. hehe *hugs*

Musical Practice tmr :}

I'm so happy.

Though it's tiring but this is something that keeps me motivated every time I wake up in the morning.

Finally, something to look forward to for the rest of the day

2 MORE DAYS TO THE ACTUAL DAY

KAMBATE!

XOXOXOXO

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I'll stand by you.

Wanted to get my phone today.

I went to see the blackberry and I was like SO NICE SO NICE THE TOUCH SCREEN BLACKBERRY PHONE'S SO NICE. But when I go see the Phone Specs, I realise the memory space is 32 times lesser than iphone's. So there you go. I've decided to get my Iphone 3G S.

After dad queued for the Singtel queue number.

He came and tell me this

"HAHA I managed to let Singtel sell me the iphone at $300 but you need to wait until 3rd of Feb to get it"

booo MY HEART'S SO DARN ITCHY.

ENDURE CLARA ENDURE!

1 and a half more week to the new phoneeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

& my mom psycho me to cut bangs today.

"YOUNG GIRL SHOULD CUT BANGS!! cut cut cut! try something new!"

& guess what

now I look like a cheen* girl.

Even my dear bro laughs at me.

yay.

There goes my first time cutting my fringe at this length

I dont wanna go to schooooool :'(

and I miss my long long fringe.

There's nth to cover my face anymore.

Feels so darn weirddddddddddd!

ttyl, having a v bad headache now.

,
Here you go. Go ahead, laugh at me :'(

xoxoxo

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Can you send me an angel?

I finally know how Lim felt when I'm not in Singapore.

Feels weird when you want to talk to someone yet the person's not there.

Anyway, take good care of your health and please freaking eat something! I don't want you to faint or anything. (bcos the feeling really sucks when that happen)

Rehersals Rehersals Rehersals.

To be honest. I love but hate it at the same time.

I love it bcos well the dance is more to my type (whoops) and it's really cool to be dancing with other CCA groups and looking at how DC dance makes me miss chinese dance. Lol.

Woke up early this morning bcos I couldn't sleep.

Reason why: I've been waking up early for school and I'm not used to sleep longer than 7 hours.

I turned on the tv and saw this charity show in USA.

"Give hope for the Haiti"

& it's as though I saw "the light"

&
I thought to myself:

People are fighting everyday.

For their life, love, dreams, food, water, goals, peace, friends, results etc.

What are we fighting for?

I really wish I could help them.

But I couldn't do much. All I can do is just continue with what I do.

Pray before I eat.

Pray for them.

& I find it stupid that I'm fretting over so many freaking stuff when there are people out there.. with more worries than me.

"This little boy was injured badly during the earthquake, his parents didn't manage to make it. He was alone for 8 days with no one to tell him that they love him. No one to tell him everything is going to be alright. No one to tell him that he'll be saved. While he as being treated, the doctors asked if he's okay and he just smiled and said "I'm good."" He didn't shed a tear at all. Despite everything, he still smiled.

What about me?

I've got y'all around me. I've got my parents and my brother. I've got a home. I've got everything I need.

Why do I still find it hard to smile and shrug off any problems?

I realised that it's been quite awhile since I donated so when this little girl was doing her flag day outside the MRT station I donated & thought of the poor people and the Haiti.

& yes, that felt good. Being able to do something small to make a huge difference.

xoxoxoxo

breathe

What's your definition of honesty?

Telling the truth?

Telling the truth but hiding some other stuff.

Is it that hard to just spill it?

Sometimes I feel like it's like a repeated scene.

Like I have to always find out stuff myself before someone decided to tell me the missing truth.

I don't get it.

I don't get it at all.

They weren't kidding when they say actions speaks louder than words.

Which one should I find it hard to believe?

Your words or your actions?

(Just a random thought that came to my mind kay. Don't ask me what's gg on!)

I totally KO at the auditorium today.

Was feeling frigging tired and I think I was frowning in my sleep? Idk.

Long day again tmr -sigh-

Wish me luck. No wait.

Wish me sleep.

Nights

xoxoxoxo

P/S: How I wish I could see you now sammie :( I'm guessing we both need our warm hugs. Rough time rough time. I miss y'all!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.

Everything's threatening me to break apart.

I should stop being such a weakling.

Really felt so superrrrrrrrrr stressd up during rehersals. Firstly, I can hardly see where my instructor is looking and pointing to without my specs on and I can't wear it cos it would drop when we dance. Secondly I have to skip so my lessons (which i'm lagging behind -thyvmuch) for something I love (dance). Thirdly, idk what's gg on with me but I'm feeling super emotional.

& guess what, i'm the only person from design school in the entire musical -out of like 100 over people-. how cool is that?

People are people

And sometimes we change our minds.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

rah rah olalala

If you love me, click here.
,
If you don't, click here.

will treat y'all coffee kay.

thanks

xoxoxoxo

fly away.

Click here to hug me

,
Click here to kick me

xoxoxoxo

Monday, January 18, 2010

take my hand.

; Like when you almost drowned, you'll have the phobia of swimming in the creepy waters.

; Like when you're locked in a dark storeroom, you'll have this fear that something creepy is watching you.

Like when I'm waiting for that lifebuoy and light to save me, I'll have this fear that the lifebuoy wouldn't reach me and the light bulb would burst.

At times when you feel like trying but backing out instead.


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'Cos you'll be in my heart Counting since 15.08.09	Sunday, February 07, 2010 A new beginning. okay i'm darn tired so i'll briefly blog - Musical's over, back to reality Everytime when something like this happen, I tend to be super emotional. It's been a great time doing crazy amount of rehersals and I really love it. Met a lot of new and awesome people during the whole journey to a new chapter. (I hope I dont sound too melo-dramatic) Can someone take a camera now? I want to take a photo of this moment and store it inside my heart. Right here. Right now. Inside. - THANK YOU DEARIES SAMANTHA, RAPHAEL, SHIH HAN, GUO HAO, YI LIAN, MARINA, VENKA, AFIQ, RAGU, CHEW YAN. FOR COMING TO SUPPORT ME. I was seriously seriously seriously seriously SERIOUSLY happy ttm. i really love y'all. - (pics on facebook) - FINALLY. FINALLY I BOUGHT BACK MY IPHONE and guess what. my mother bought it too. HAHAH WE BOTH HAVE OUR IPHONESSSS ;D Mine was 32gB and hers was 16. Guess what. Both our phones costs us $598 in total. & both of ours got white toooooo and she was like saying "scully i take wrongly then your bf call me "eh hello clara we're meeting at - and - at - time right? and I'll be like " WHO IS THIS!? THIS IS HER MOTHER HERE" then i was like "later your boss call me then tell me you're late for work how?!" - okay. but first thing first. I have no boyfriend. - On the first day of the actual performance, they gave us daisy flowers for each performancers and I WAS DARN DARN DARN HAPPY:} I can't believe I actually dont feel nervous at all when I danced on stage infront of the 1k people. - 2nd day was the bomb. I was soooo excited and sad. Bcos it's the final day that we're working so hard for. Everything seems to be flying so fast. Things would be so different without musical pract now :( I'll miss the alumnis and the rest Ily. & NYP's so nice to buy Koi Bubble tea for all the performers. yummy! - xoxoxo will blog again. P/S: i hope that "out of sight out of mind" doesnt happen to us. 11:38 PM · Tuesday, February 02, 2010 Our charade. It seems like this year's haven't been moving smoothly for me. Is it because I didnt do my count down for a new year? Can things not be any worst than this. - Project week this week and I srsly am struggling with loads of work. So much to a certain extent where I really feel like giving up and screw it. & I'm like sleeping at an average of 4 HOURS PER DAY. Then again I reminded myself that I want to make my poly days an enjoyable one so I decided to hang in there and complete my assignments. - However bad luck seems to be my BFF these few days. My concession card just nice expired when I'm in a hurry for school. Dropped my phone when I payed for the standard card. Cold war with mommy bcos she just can't stop frigging be less annoying. (Yeh I know it's so unlike me to quarrel with my mom). Forgot to bring my Final Project to school and today was the submission. YA GG. Had to bear with insensitive people around me judging me because of some guys. Srsly. I don't want to go through another turmoil period. What's wrong with saying hi or bye? Please stop messing around my life and friends. Ye sure, gossip but please, set some limits. I don't want to become like some bitch when things gets out of hand. - Finally I ate icecream again. They are my happy pills and judging from the amount of things gg on in my life, all I can say is I'll be growing fat bcos I'll be needing a lot of happy pills. - FINALLY met up with chicky today to pass him the musical tickets :} I'm so darn happy that sammie love and the rest are coming. I'll try to get more tickets kay?! Both of us catched up with our stuff and ate A LOTTTTTTTT. Like spaghetti and apple crumble @ Pasta Mania, then went to swensons to get icecreammmm. Talked about our school life and crawled back home together bcos we were toooooooooooooooo full. Our stomachs were exploding. - I know I've been neglecting some friends during this period bcos of my hectice schedule and of course, I'm seriously damn tired. I hope y'all aren't mad. Wait till everything's done and I'll catch up with y'all kay? & My dear classmates were really patient with me. I know I can be really irritating at times bcos I always forget to bring this and that. hehe hugs - Musical Practice tmr :} I'm so happy. Though it's tiring but this is something that keeps me motivated every time I wake up in the morning. Finally, something to look forward to for the rest of the day 2 MORE DAYS TO THE ACTUAL DAY KAMBATE! XOXOXOXO 11:47 PM · Sunday, January 24, 2010 I'll stand by you. Wanted to get my phone today. I went to see the blackberry and I was like SO NICE SO NICE THE TOUCH SCREEN BLACKBERRY PHONE'S SO NICE. But when I go see the Phone Specs, I realise the memory space is 32 times lesser than iphone's. So there you go. I've decided to get my Iphone 3G S. After dad queued for the Singtel queue number. He came and tell me this "HAHA I managed to let Singtel sell me the iphone at $300 but you need to wait until 3rd of Feb to get it" - booo MY HEART'S SO DARN ITCHY. ENDURE CLARA ENDURE! 1 and a half more week to the new phoneeeeeeeeeeeeeee. - & my mom psycho me to cut bangs today. "YOUNG GIRL SHOULD CUT BANGS!! cut cut cut! try something new!" & guess what now I look like a cheen* girl. Even my dear bro laughs at me. yay. There goes my first time cutting my fringe at this length I dont wanna go to schooooool :'( and I miss my long long fringe. There's nth to cover my face anymore. Feels so darn weirddddddddddd! - ttyl, having a v bad headache now. , Here you go. Go ahead, laugh at me :'(xoxoxo 10:00 PM · Saturday, January 23, 2010 Can you send me an angel? I finally know how Lim felt when I'm not in Singapore. Feels weird when you want to talk to someone yet the person's not there. Anyway, take good care of your health and please freaking eat something! I don't want you to faint or anything. (bcos the feeling really sucks when that happen) - Rehersals Rehersals Rehersals. To be honest. I love but hate it at the same time. I love it bcos well the dance is more to my type (whoops) and it's really cool to be dancing with other CCA groups and looking at how DC dance makes me miss chinese dance. Lol. - Woke up early this morning bcos I couldn't sleep. Reason why: I've been waking up early for school and I'm not used to sleep longer than 7 hours. I turned on the tv and saw this charity show in USA. "Give hope for the Haiti" & it's as though I saw "the light" & I thought to myself: People are fighting everyday. For their life, love, dreams, food, water, goals, peace, friends, results etc. What are we fighting for? I really wish I could help them. But I couldn't do much. All I can do is just continue with what I do. Pray before I eat. Pray for them. , & I find it stupid that I'm fretting over so many freaking stuff when there are people out there.. with more worries than me. "This little boy was injured badly during the earthquake, his parents didn't manage to make it. He was alone for 8 days with no one to tell him that they love him. No one to tell him everything is going to be alright. No one to tell him that he'll be saved. While he as being treated, the doctors asked if he's okay and he just smiled and said "I'm good."" He didn't shed a tear at all. Despite everything, he still smiled. , What about me? I've got y'all around me. I've got my parents and my brother. I've got a home. I've got everything I need. Why do I still find it hard to smile and shrug off any problems? - I realised that it's been quite awhile since I donated so when this little girl was doing her flag day outside the MRT station I donated & thought of the poor people and the Haiti. & yes, that felt good. Being able to do something small to make a huge difference. , xoxoxoxo 11:12 PM · breathe What's your definition of honesty? Telling the truth? Or Telling the truth but hiding some other stuff. Is it that hard to just spill it? Sometimes I feel like it's like a repeated scene. Like I have to always find out stuff myself before someone decided to tell me the missing truth. I don't get it. I don't get it at all. They weren't kidding when they say actions speaks louder than words. Which one should I find it hard to believe? Your words or your actions? - (Just a random thought that came to my mind kay. Don't ask me what's gg on!) - I totally KO at the auditorium today. Was feeling frigging tired and I think I was frowning in my sleep? Idk. Long day again tmr -sigh- Wish me luck. No wait. Wish me sleep. Nights xoxoxoxo - P/S: How I wish I could see you now sammie :( I'm guessing we both need our warm hugs. Rough time rough time. I miss y'all! 12:46 AM · Thursday, January 21, 2010 Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see. Everything's threatening me to break apart. I should stop being such a weakling. , Really felt so superrrrrrrrrr stressd up during rehersals. Firstly, I can hardly see where my instructor is looking and pointing to without my specs on and I can't wear it cos it would drop when we dance. Secondly I have to skip so my lessons (which i'm lagging behind -thyvmuch) for something I love (dance). Thirdly, idk what's gg on with me but I'm feeling super emotional. , & guess what, i'm the only person from design school in the entire musical -out of like 100 over people-. how cool is that? , People are people And sometimes we change our minds. 12:10 AM · Tuesday, January 19, 2010 rah rah olalala If you love me, click here. , If you don't, click here. - will treat y'all coffee kay. thanks xoxoxoxo 3:39 PM · fly away. - Click here to hug me , Click here to kick me - xoxoxoxo 3:39 PM · Monday, January 18, 2010 take my hand. ; Like when you almost drowned, you'll have the phobia of swimming in the creepy waters. ; Like when you're locked in a dark storeroom, you'll have this fear that something creepy is watching you. Like when I'm waiting for that lifebuoy and light to save me, I'll have this fear that the lifebuoy wouldn't reach me and the light bulb would burst. At times when you feel like trying but backing out instead. 10:52 PM ·